new things in my life

well its been awhile since i posted anything on here, so there are all kinds of new things with me, my daughter is 2 1/2 now, i have an amazing boyfriend who takes real good care of me, my daughter loves him.. my babys daddy and his side of the family havent txt me in a month to see abriana, its there lost not mine. i am so over the drama and bull shit now, i have everything i have ever wanted and then some, i love my boyfriend so very much.

Moving on

of course things just keep getting worse everyday, its like i way one little thing an automatically im the bad guy. well im sorry but im the only one in this house that will actually say something, i dont regret anything that i say. i mean everything that i say, nothings never gunna be done if someone doesnt say something and im the only one who will say something, i am soo sick and tired of this.

Family issues

It all started when my brother left his exwife. he went to stay with a friend then moved out of there went to live with my brother an then my brothers wife kicked him out and now he is staying with us. he was supposed to only be staying with us for two weeks...well its been 3 weeks now. we are struggling, i mean we can hardly take care of our selves let alone feed another mouth. he aint working, he aint even trying and he is like all over the place, he wants to go for his cdl one day the next day he wants to do something else, he dont even know what he wants. he aint even trying to get his life back on track he sits on his ass all damn day or goes up stairs and lays down, and he is in my bedroom, so i have no bedtoom. i am so sick and tired of this then when you say something he gets all bent out of shape about it, or when you ask him what he is going to do yet agian he gets all bent out of shape. you cant say nothing to him without him getting all pissy about it.i really cant live like this no more, its getting way to hard. he says dont tell me about my life when your life aint any better well you know what you brought this upon your self this aint no one elses problem but yours. GET A LIFE!!!

my feelings!!

my feelings are mixed, they are sorta all over the place, i don't know what i should do with my life, i know i need to set some goals for myself && i need to stick to them because i noticed when i don't have goals i don't stick to them nor do i accomplish anything, so i need to create goals for myself and complete them. so that way i might have some type of sensibility of what i wanna do with my life and actually accomplish something.

being a single parent

some times being a single parent aint that easy, but you have to have faith and just let it work its self out, sometimes theres gunna be people in ur life u dont like but u gotta stick threw it, because sooner or later ur gunna give up on that person or that persons gunna leave, like for insitance i dont like my babys daddys fiance, she thinks i am leaving the picture shes sadly mistaken because i am not going no where for the simple fact that she wants to try and take my place and be the mother of my child, but she dont even take care of her own as it is, so she can just stop trying to put herself in the middle of something that dont pertain to her, yea shes his fiance but its none of her buisness what me and my babys daddy talk about, like shes are daughter no theres, i can talk too him if i want too, shes just jealous because i got his first born and she dont, and she gets mad when my babys daddy spends time with our daughter well its our daughter if he wants too spend time with her he can, he dont even spend time with his son, why because he still loves me and he knows it and i know it, and honestly i still care for him, and he knows i will always be here for him rather u or anybody else likes it or not, he knows he can come stay with me if he had too, he knows how i feel towards him, so heres my word of advice too you, DONT PUT UR SELF IN THE MIDDLE OF SOMETHING THAT DONT EVEN PERTAIN TOO YOU!! OH AND SORRY HONEY U WILL NEVER BE HER MOTHER ONLY THE PERSON WHO BIRTHED HER CAN BE HER MOTHER AND THATS MYSELF!! SORRY TO BREAK UR LITTLE THOUGHT OF MAKING MY DAUGHTER APART OF UR SO CALLED HAPPY FAMILY, IT AINT GONNA WORK!! UR NOT A SPECIAL PERSON OR A MOTHER AND IT TAKES BOTH OF THEM TOO BE A GOOD MOTHER, WELL WE ALL KNOW U AINT U TAKE UR KID PLACES LIKE HIS GRANDPARENTS HOUSE LEAVE HIM IN THE HOUSE WITH THEM AND GO OUTSIDE TO BE UP HIS ASS, DID U EVER THINK THAT MAYBE THAT SHIT GETS ANNOYING LIKE FOR REAL FOR REAL!!

BABYS DADDY

BOY ITS FUNNY HOW HE KNOWS HE ALREADY GOT ONE KID, AND WASNT EVEN EXCITED ABOUT HER BUT NOW HIS NASTY FIANCE IS HAVING A BABY, AND HE'S ALL EXCITED ABOUT IT, WOW HE DONT KNOW WHAT HE GOT COMING TOO HIM!! BOY I WOULD LOVE TOO BE A FLY ON THE WALL WHEN HE GETS THE PAPERS THAT HE HAS TOO GO TO CHILD SUPPORT COURT HA HA.....STUPID FOOL CANT KEEP HIS JUNK IN HIS PANTS, IF HE DIDNT HAVE TOO ALWAYS HUMP LIKE A FREAKIN RABBIT HE WOULDNT HAVE TOO KIDS TO SUPPORT, I WANNA KNOW WHY GUYS GET ONE GIRL PREGNANT BUT WASNT EVEN EXCITED THEN GO AND GET THERE FIANCES PREGNANT AND THEN HE'S ALL LIKE IM GONNA BE A DADDY...HELLO THERE BOTH YOUR KIDS YOU MIGHT NOT LIKE ME BUT SHES STILL UR DAUGHTER.....I DONT EVEN KNOW HOW THERE GONNA SUPPORT A KID....